Update to tired tired tired so tired: chronic-lyme

Update to: http://www.first-do-no-harm.com/2009/07/tired-tired-tired-so-tired-chronic-lyme.html

So I left off on Friday and broke a few rules. I went to pick up my kids at my moms and my mom wasn't ready. I ended up standing around her house for an hour. Getting hungry. She offered me peanuts and fresh cherries. Yeah like that is going to digest well with a handful of antibiotics. So I drank water. By the time she had them ready to roll I was tired and sick and starving. I felt like I couldn't stand up. I need to set some limits with my mom.

Rule: The kids are ready to go by 5:30 or she can bring them home later.

One of the things I tell people recovering from Lyme is don't eat out. As an immune compromised person I can tell you that food that is just slightly off can be a huge disaster. And so it was on Friday night as I didn't take my own advice and pulled into Taco Bell. I order a plain tortilla and plain cheese. No sauce, no tomatoes - no nothing. I figured this would hold me together while I fixed some dinner. But by the time I got home I was headed for bed sick to my stomach. The vomiting started an hour later. I tried to hold it off with a dose of probiotic. But up everything came with projectile force. This continued most of the night and was over by sunrise. The next day was spent just laying around. I had to stop all antibiotics and Mepron for 24 hours. By Sunday morning I was ready to start again with half doses and I should be back on my abx routine by Monday.

Where did it go wrong? Rewind to Friday where I was over tired. I should have taken the day off
Why did I volunteer to get the kids? Because I am closer.
Why did I wait for an hour at my moms. Because I did not want to inconvenience her.
Why was I so hungry? I could have driven down the road to the grocery but I was too tired.
I was also lonely and wanted some company so I just sat there at my moms house starving.
But I was in no shape to talk. I had not packed my emergency snacks.
Why did I get Taco Bell? Because it was close and I had run out of yogurt so I knew the cupboard was bare of anything I could eat immediately when I got home.

In 12 step they have an acronym called HALT. They say acting out an addiction - what ever it is - is most likely to occur if we let ourselves get too Hungry, too Angry, Lonely or Tired.

I will meditate on this - this week.